This is my first blog so I figure I would use this to tell you a little about myself. I grew up in your stereotypical southern Christian home. But I never really felt like my faith was my own. It was my parents and because of that I didn't want to have much to do with it. In high school I was a swimmer and a basketball player and got into the party scene. My weekends were spend over indulging in drinking and marijuana. I got pretty deep into smoking weed and by the time I got to college I found myself doing it everyday. But I always felt something was missing. I was made for more and I knew this. I could feel it in my gut, in my soul. God was calling me. But I didn't want him. I wanted my own selfish and fleshly desires and I was going to pursue those until I found my life in shambles.
and I did.

I have gone through a lot of hard times that I have brought upon myself these last few years, but they have also turned out to be a blessing. I am a new person. God has redeemed me and more importantly provided me with the one thing I need most in life: forgiveness.

I am not who I used to be. However that does not mean that my sinful desires do not arise in me. In fact it is quite the contrary. I fight against my flesh daily. And to be quite honest, it often wins. But the times I overcome it, it is a victory for God.

I don't know where I'm going in life, but I know God is leading me and that's all I need to know.